Hinduism. Suddenly feeling the need to look into my past and re-connect with it. I would have never felt like this if I were in India. The political and social situations in the country currently are so saddening, I unknowingly drifted away from something so beautiful.
Why am I feeling this need, miles away from country, language and culture?
Am I homesick? Is it because I am meeting too many people with too proud a sense about their own cultures? Has it made me feel that I don’t value my culture or religion enough or is it making me want to develop a strong cultural identity just because people around me are. It is strange because I never was a big fan of religion anyway.
I always remember myself being very global/humanitarian in my views on religion. I never really carried my birth identity with me where ever I went and have always believed that to be a good thing, because I am open to other cultures. And of course that is a good thing.
Imagine going to someone’s house in a different country and they serve you their really special, one of a kind, truly authentic tea. You take a sip, while the person who served you waits to hear your thoughts on the tea, on that precious culture they so very proudly shared with you.
And you sip the tea and say “ Ahh, In my country, the tea is ….”
That is just pathetic. Don’t ever do that.
I still don't know why I am planing to do a small research paper on Hinduism.
Because. umm. Just. I feel like it
or the reasons could be,
Too many people have asked me if I am religious.
Too many people talk about their culture and its amazingness around me. I am growing tired and its not like I don’t have anything to say, I just don’t want to. Its nice to see and meet all these religiously and culturally fuelled people. But at times it is a pain in my spiritual ass.
At the moment I suffer from humanity, I am a patriot, earth is my country. I am eager to know more about hinduism tho. It is so exciting, so simple, so tolerant, so fun and dramatic. It has gods and demons like in a comic book. Our gods smoke pot say the wisest things.
Being far away from all the chaos in India, I am in a place of peace and calm, in a small town in Germany. There is this beautiful forest near my house, its meditative. Revisiting Hinduism here, will surely help me realise to value it there. (India) Time and again I have known this fact, you learn to value things when you don't have them. I have always valued Hinduism, because it is a part of me. In my teens, I did not mind saying a lil prayer before going to bed because it would make my mum feel good. In my early 20's I started to critique it and hold opinions about it. By my mid-twenties I want to start on a clean slate and learn again.